Things are getting more complicated ahead of tomorrow.
Emma's asked Steven and Caroline via Facebook if they would be able to let me stay at there's on Friday after KOKO as her own house is packed with too many people staying over.
I'm not sure how it's all going to work out but I'm hoping that either of them will be happy to let me stay over as I haven't booked any hotels for my first night in London.
I'm guessing the other issue is how I will spend my Saturday before heading to the Indig02.
StephenH is planning to watch the Celtic game at a pub in Kilburn before 5 although I'm not too sure what I would want to be doing.
Everyone else I know of is either working or on holiday making impossible to meet up with others and this is really making me feel more weaker and vulnerable about how I spend my weekend in London.
I'm rather worried about it resulting in me not being able to come over at all tomorrow and potentially severing any bonds with others just because I don't live near to them.
That's how I've felt about things and if I'd known in the past that my disability allowance could have covered for work placements, I would have felt more confident about applying and this wouldn't be a problem.
I've spent a lot of time conivinced that certain aims cannot be reached just because of some short minded individuals who think they're better than they actually are.
I know I haven't brought a house myself, I know I haven't had a proper job for three years, but I can't see how any of this could stop me from being different to others.
I may end up "coming out" before too long in terms of me being pathetic and not admitting it.
A possible doctor's appointment may be required
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