Unhealthily Nostalgic

My obsessive interest in television from an early age, lead to my parents
purchasing telly related teen magazines which despite being aimed
at readers 10 years my senior, was what really helped me learn to read.

One such magazine being "Look In", billed in its prime as
"The Junior TV Times" and I managed to discover an impressive
website featuring scans of old issues "John's Look-Out".

For some bizarre reason I tended to have such magazines bought for me
depending on what Saturday morning show was airing, as during the
summer months it would be Look In, as I was obsessed with ITV's
Ghost Train, but when Going Live! would return in the Autumn
I would switch to the BBC's Fast Forward publication.

And I think I had a copy of the issue advertised in the above clip.

Anyway, the above website would have been a perfect compliment
to my "insanely nostalgic" phase of early August 2007 when I developed
an obsession for the delights on DJFairborne77's Youtube channel.

It resulted me writing notes about them on Facebook, tagging
people on their who I very much doubt shared the same enthusiasm
(let alone over-enthusiasm) for them.

However, pride comes before a fall and the constant elation soon
turned into depression.

Which sort of relates to a video blog I found earlier tonight from
Nicole, an American blogger who is very open about her experiences
with hypomania, and what exactly the signs are of someone getting
a bit too optimistic.

It's sort of similar to the Look In website, because I could have
bleeding well done with an explanation of my illness and how others
got through their comedowns with hypomania back in the Autumn of 2007.

And that's not having a go at Nicole at all.

It's at supposed friends who I thought were close to me,
that just wouldn't give me the time of day after my "wobble".

Although to be fair, they were probably sick of my endless nostalgic
tangents that were far away from the planet that they were on.

It's hard to let go of certain things...